I've realized as I have gotten older
(and yes I understand that 24 is not "old"er)
that the word LOVE is so much deeper and fuller
than I dreamed it could be back before I ever truly felt it.
I have been so blessed to experience many different kinds of love.
I have a:
Head Over Heels
Best Friend,
Supportive Team Mate Forever
kind of love with my sweet Mr. B
I have a:
Cherished,
Ever Grateful,
Beautiful Memories,
kind of love with my parents and siblings.
And now that I am a mother I have
come to the realization that I will
never fully be able to express
my love for my sweet baby girl.
(along with any and all other children that I have)
No matter how many hugs, kisses, squeezes and
"I love you so much" whispered in her ear,
No matter how many sleepless nights of
endless rocking and sshhhusshing,
And when she is older,
No matter how much time, effort and support
I try to give to her.
I don't believe she will truly grasp the depth of
how much I love her.
I am okay with that reality
because one day when she becomes a mother herself.
Then.
She'll have a moment.
It will click.
She'll sit there with her baby in her arms and say...
"Ahhhh... now I get it."
My mother and I have had your average mother-daughter
ups and downs, but now that I am a mother myself
I better understand that
-she loves me and I love her-
MORE than we will ever get the chance to share or show.
As I speak of this love I obviously
can't go on without including
our perfect example of love from
Our Heavenly Father and his Son Jesus Christ.
If I can't explain or express how much I love my sweet baby girl,
then I can't even try to comprehend how much love they have for each one of us.
So I won't.
I will just try my best each day to soak up that love,
cherish it, accept it, and share it with those around me.
I hope there never comes a day that this
spectacular love ever becomes ordinary.
Because to love someone more than you can express
is truly magic.
